i've been away )x

Holaa amigas!

shlounkum? sh5barkum?

Adrii ena i've been away for so long..

But things hadn't been going to great over here..

School isn't going well, i guess the major i picked isn't for me..

...also...

I don't know how to say this..

... About a month ago, We all found out that mom has cancer, mom didn't know as well.

It was really shocking and we are all by her side...

It is a very tough time!

All I want is your prayers Please!

Ou bs ard 3alaa il 7achiie ily being said..

Etha you don't like my blog, then fuck off!

Ma7ad jbarkoum tgroun anything i'm writing..

A9lan ma tswoun enii ard 3laaickoum wala enii aktb 3anckoum ..


anyways ya 9abaaya;*

ana haalla ra7 atrkooun, O ezaa allaa rad ra7 enshoufikoun 3an areeb ;Pp

Seventeen & Counting:~ Khalid

what I did next is something that I always regreted doing..

..Too long~

I sincerely apologize for beening away this long...
I had been really busy with signing up to school, and making phone calls to secure my furture.
I will resume writing very soon.
Sorry for keeping you guys hanging..

Laters.

Seventeen & Counting:*~ Ba67an & 3azouz

Before i start, I just wanted to share this picture with you. The guy on the right looks exactly like 7amad. This is a picture from the movie, coco before chanel. It's about the life of coco chanel. And as i was watching i knew he looked like someone, and sure it was 7amad. I tried to find the perfect picture, but there weren't any )= .. I STRONGLY recommend you to watch the movie, it is one of the best!!







My camping trip was amazing! We had few unexpected visitors, like Black bears, racoons, and alot of mosquitos. The mosquitos usually attacked me as soon as the campfire was on. i counted my mosquito bites, and i have 80 overall. Sadly, some of them are in VERY awkward places, and it's every embarressing to itch them in public. We went into the watercaves, and this year, as we expected, the water level rised, and there were plenty of waterfalls inside the caves. At one point of the caves, it was flushed with water, and we had to swim to get to the other side. The bestest part of the whole trip were the lifeguards! Oh my god were they hot! They were hotter than the sun, the were like double chocolate cookies that melt in ur mouth, they were like heaven! Myself and my friend gave them hot coco, and they were so appreciative, ah the bestest feature in a man...








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3azouz was leaving to another city, and so he suggested for all of us to go clubbing.


It was his last night here and we wanted to make it the bestest night.





Lucy and I got dressed and we're to meet up with them at a resturant in downtown then pick a club to go too.





Lucy is 21.. she has extremely long hair, and because her parent stricked her from doing anything, whenever she sneaks out she makes the best of it.


And that is her lifestyle, school, sneak out.. clubbing.. and any guy she can get her hands on.





Lucy made it to my house at around 11, I wasn't sure if I wanted to go until five minutes before the cab driver came, so you can imagine how rushed i was to get ready.





I wore a red dress with black leggings and boots. I had my hair down and i put a red hair band on to make it look sexier.





Lucy wore a strapless checkered dress, she let her long hair down with a dimondy hair band on.





We met up with 3azouz and his friend s3oud at about mid-night.


They were sitting at the bar area and I'm sure they had few shots before our arrival.





We asked 3azouz to pick a club, since it was his last night he got to pick.


The problem was he didn't pick the "usual" club we go too, he decided to go somewhere further..


Both lucy and I didn't really want to go there but we cannot ruin his night.





We got into the cab and started to chit-chat.


S3oud was very very quite.. He was also very very Cute!


it was very rare that you'd hear him saying something.





We got to the first club, but unfortunatly the bouncer wouldn't let us go in because it's 21 and over, and lucy wasn't 21 yet. And yes, I had fake I.D(A)





So we decided to head to a different club, but that club also wouldn't let us in because they didn't accept 3zouz's saudi ID.





Surprisingly, 3azouz found his other friend at the door, he lead us to another club!





We entered, and it was horrible!


It was exactly like a high school dance.


Very immature people,


people who only wanted to get drunk,


Gurls all over the place..


It was ...WAAI3!





we danced to few song, i had a drink and so did lucy and 3azouz..


But while we were standing, i was looking at s3oud.


He ordered a shot,


put salt on his palm..


took the lemon..


and just stared at the cup..


Then very calmly he licked the salt, took his shot, and sucked the lemon..


I just thought how amazing.. he was totally calm and steady.





I wanted to go to the bathroom, and lucy came with me..


when we came out, 3azouz and s3oud were at the door waiting for us, and they asked us if we wanted to leave.. Only if he knew that i wanted to leave the moment i walked into the club!





On our way out, 3azouz mention's ba67an, and how he will leave him behind but he'll be back from him after a week...





me:


"God, I just hate that cat!!!"





3azouz:


"Why? bad memory?"





OMG! DID HE JUST SAY THAT!!!!? SO HE TOTALLY KNOW'S ABOUT 7AMAD AND I!


HOW


EMBARRESSING!





after we left the club, we went to a resturant in downtown and chit-chatted till 4 in the morning. We had a great night and we all left home from there.

Ba67an now has baby kittens, i dunno how many, but they are alot!

Since then,I talked briefly with 3azouz and that was it.

Next post inshallah will be about man9our.. and i have many convo.s with him and i have the messages that started us off.

P.S

I'm still recovering from camping..

Everyone enjoy ur lives until the next post..

Much looove;**

Seventeen & Counting:*~7amad.. 3azouz\fai9al

Name: 7amad
Age:21
Nationality: Qatari

7amad Al...., Huge huge family, mu bas in G6ar, bil s3oudia ou 7ata Qwait.
In the city that I live in, it's very hard finding a decent guy, either for pleasure or for long term. At that point of my life, I didn't have my first kiss yet, and i wanted it so badly. You see... When you live in a country where everyone around you is white and they have different thinking and points of view to life, some how you start to believe in what they believe in and think the exact way as them. So to me, it was a shame that i still didn't kiss a guy, and to make it interesting, i only recently found out ena i'm not even suppose to kiss a guy, wierd? I know. So back to 7amad, I met him through a friend, he asked if he could add me on msn, and i agreed. I believe it was after the second or the third convo. that he asked me out on a date. Let's not forget, this is technically my first date. I suggested to meet up for coffee at the mall at 10 am. I didn't want it to be a serious thing, if it was a dinner then it'l be too much, i didn't want to scare the man away. I just wanted it to be as simple as coffee. We talked the night before our date and he mentioned what i've been longing for...

7amad:
"Tra etha i really like you, i'm gonna kiss you..."
Me:
;$;$

Next morning:
I felt Really really sick, i was throwing up and my perfectly placed make-up was getting ruined. But that didn't stop me from meeting up with him. I get there at 10 and he was there waiting for me. I didn't want to be earlier than him because he would think A) i'm a freak, Or B) i'm too excited to see him, and i didn't want him to think neither of them. Plus, being late is so great because he gets to do all the work, from picking where to sit TO waiting for Me. I had coffee and he had a Mocha. We were talking about random things... Ohh, did i mention how cute he is?!! He is sooo pretttty it's adourable!!!

Me
"What's the wildest thing you've done?"
7amad
"uhmm let's see..."
"you want the absoult wildest?"
Me
"Absoultly!"
7amad
"Well, I video taped my friend and his gf having sex.. He wanted it, and she knew"

Isn't that just disgusting?!! but i guess i didn't mind...
He told me about him clubing in a near by city, and how much fun it was.. I didn't really care.
We walked around, grabbed Baskin robins shakes and continued our walk..
It was my time to go and so i told him..
He stared at me..
And stared..
Not just any stare..
But the stare..
That talkes more than words..
And send emotions straight to your body..
A stare That says something...

He leaned in and whispered in my ear
"Can I kiss you?"

i couldn't really say anything..
This guy wants to kiss me in public.. and i have PDA soo Much!!
Therefore, without any words..
I just stared back..
I couldn't say,
Yes
Or
No..

Without notice..
he leans in...
and
MWAAAAAAAAAH!

Waitt
Not just a MWAAAAH
But a MWAAAAH with a Tongue!
Yea that's right, my first kiss was a french kiss!

The first part of the kiss was just lips on lips..
then his tongue came into action..

And incase you were wondering,,, Yupp the woman in front of us was Staring!.. i wished i never knew that..

Gives me the warmest hug, and i left..


Everything in life taste soo good, until you absorb it you realize how much harm it is...

After day dreaming about what happened earlier, i signed in on msn and to my surprise he was online..

7amad
"Hi"
Me
"heey, shlounik?"
7amad
"goood"

and the convo went as normal as ever..
until ..
This came about!

7amad
"I want you to be my playgirl"
Me
"What?!! what does that mean?"
7amad
"I'll be your playboy and you'll be my playgirl.."
Me
"i still don't get it.."
7amad
"y3ni, i take off your shirt..3ady.. i take off your pants.. 3ady.. I don't want to hear no.."
Me
"7AAAAAAAMAD I'M NOT THAT KINDA GIRL! WHAT ARE YOU SAYING!"
7amad
"I never go all the way until a girl asks me to, so don't be afraid"

Seriously, i felt disgusted.. All i did was kiss him, actually and techniqely, he kissed me..
And with that I blocked him..

Now, 7amad has a cat, his name is "ba67an" ou allah eslmkoum ba67an hatha wara a whole story. God i just wish that cat was dead, YES, as evil as that!


Name: 3azouz
Age:22
Nationality: Saudi

I met him through facebook. As i said before, it's really hard trying to find a decent guy in this city. Not because they are all ugly, but because there are very few of them. We talked alot of msn, and we were getting along very well. This was maybe 3 winters ago, right after 7amad. He was obviously in love with me, but after 7amad i had to really becareful. I didn't call him nor did he call me because that was something i wasn't ready for. I wasn't sure if i wanted to go to the next level. After all, i don't want to lead the guy then ask him to back off. During christmas break, everyone takes advantage of the two weeks break and goes back to their countries. Before 3azouz left, he asked if we could go out together.. but i refused, and my excuse was to wait until he comes back.

After he came back in january, i was too busy with school since it was the end of the semester and that's exactly when all the work piles up.

During that time, I was introduced to his best friend, Fai9al. Fai9al is 23 ou ham s3oudi. Obou fai9al Shiekh qabeelathoum, ou oho mn 3ayla kbeeera. Ou all fai9al's brothers ma kanaw yaboun e9roun after there dad, shiekh ilqabeela.. Fa fai9al took over. I understand why they didn't want it, it's too much responsibility. ( I'll get more into him later...)
Ou Fai9al had a friend.. Esmha Nora... Kuwaitiya ou she's here to learn english.. ( I'll get more into her later...)

In march, 3azouz asked again if we could go on a date.. i was still not sure..
and so he suggested that maybe he could invite Fai9al ou Nora and I could invite my cusin ( who i'm here with) and her friend, to make it more comfortable for me.. And so i agreed...

we all met up at the mall, and went out to the restuarant..
3azouz was tall, and fai9al was nothing like I expected, he was a MAN! Ooh how much i love them.. ( If you guys ask to see a pic, i sure won't mind..)
We all sat around the table, and fai9al took over the whole lunch..
talking about il.s3oudia, ou who he is.. and he was SUPER funny...
3azouz was sitting in front of me..
and i was SUPER SUPER SUPER shy!
Let me tell you to what point..
to a point that..
I
DIDN'T
SPEAK
A
SINGLE
WORD!

It was all fai9al talking..
&
Talking..
And i thank him SO much for that!

Fai9al and my cusin became really close, and 3zouz and i were reasonably close..
So we were over their house all the time, whether it's lunch or dessert..

One day..
My cousin and I went over..
And i was seriously bored from my life.. and once i get that feeling i always like to do something out of the ordinary to boost myself up..

me
"Fai9al.. 3ndik pool?"

Fai9al
"Eee Laish?"

Me
"Sasha( my cousin) Wanna go swimming?"

Sasha
"What?"

Me
"Please please!"

Sasha
"we don't have our bikinis!"

Me
"So! we'll swim with our bras and undies and we could dry them too! PLEASE"

Sasha
"Okay bas ib shar6.. fai9al ou 3azouz mayooun"

Me
"I don't care I WANNA GO!"

Fai9al
"7beebi e5thi il.mfatee7 ou rou7u 7ag il.pool"

Me
"HEEEEYYYYYA!"

We went into the changing room and did what we had to do.. Took off our clothes, criss-crossed our bras to make it look hotter..

I got out and the pool looked so Yuummmy!
And so I ran and dived in!

After sasha and i swam, we went into the Jacouzi and felt horrible cus we didn't allow fai9al to come.. and so we called him to come up and swim with us..
And so he did..

we had such a good time just swimming and laughing our asses off!

After a biit, 3azouz decided to come and join us.. and we got a little closer..

After swimming we decided to order pizza and just sit and talk.. After all we are super tired cus of swimming.. I was in 3azouz arms and sasha was sitting next to fai9al..

Fai9al took sasha in the room and they left 3azouz and i alone..
3azouz was teasing me and laughing..
At one point, he was staring at me..
yes .. that stare..!!! i think you know what i'm talking about...
and instead of recieving the information he was sending me with his eyes, i decided to ingore it and keep talking..
I just turned his kiss down.!


After couple of weeks..
i heard from 3azouz how he went with 7AMAD gift shopping for his GURLFRIEND!!
I WAS SOO SHOCKED!
And ofcourse 7amad the idiot told 3azouz about what happened between us..FUCK!

After maybe a month from that..
7amad was leaving for ever back to g6ar..
and he was leaving his cat BA67AN with 3AZOUZ!!

W
T
F!

Why him! i don't want anything to remind me of the IDIOT!!

Last winter, 3azouz decided to move to another city, and so he asked us to go clubbing with since it was his last night in the city..



Clubing is a whole scene..
and I'm going camping tomorrow and i still didn't pack!
It's already 8pm and i have no time left..
I'll continue the story once i get back..

When i come back, I'm gonna talk about what happened at the club, i'll talk more about fai9al ou Noura..

If you anyone wants anything specific please do ask!

And tell me how i'm doing, this is my first blog you know, tell me what i'm doing right, and what i'm doing wrong.. i'll definatly try to turn the negative into a postive..

I hope it doesn't thunder while camping because that must be the scariest thing in the world!

Have fun.. ou let me see more comments and feedback...

P.S,
This happened maybe 2 years ago, so i can't really remember specific details..
When i get into the next half of the list it'll be alot easier because it didn't happened too long ago.. and the club scene was only couple of months ago so it's still fresh in my mind..

GOD! I HAVE TO PACKKKK!
Laterrrs<33

(( Ohh sorry if there are any spellling mistakes or anything like that.. i didn't proof read due to the lack of time;****)

Seventeen & Counting;*~ 6rad/Taz

Name: 6rad
Age: 17 ( at the time)
Nationality: Saudi

I walk into class first day of school in a foreign country. I was extremely nervous because I had no idea what to expect. It was geography, a subject I totally didn't mind. As soon as I step foot into class I immediately realized all the Arabs. As usual, they were very loud and obnoxious. They were sitting in the front rows of class, therefore I decided to sit at the back, complete opposite of them. My theory about the Arabs here in where I live is that basically stay away from them. They are not to be trusted and never to be socializing with them. Mrs.Park, our teacher, introduces herself and she talked a little about herself before we got started with the activities she planned for the first day of school. Mrs.Park is very cute and pretty, she is Korean with a French husband, a Kid, and she was pregnant. We got started by copying geographic facts about the country I'm in and afterwards we were suppose to do a presentation about what we learned. I introduced myself to the girl sitting next to me and I asked if she wanted to be partners, and so we did. We finished planning what we were going to talk about in front of class and we felt very comfortable with our material. The teacher erases the work on the board and she announced who wanted to be first, i raised my arm. I like to go first in presentations because when the teacher will have no expectations and also she won't compare you to other presentations. Plus, As soon as you're done, you can sit back and relax and not have to stress about anything. So my partner and I go up to present, while all the guys drooling in the front of the class. They made sure to clap as soon as I was done talking, and there whispers together was just super obvious. After we were done, we grabbed our seats and sat to listen to the other presentations. Oh, did i mention how horrible and embarrassing their presentations were? The teacher is already in love with me and she pointed my partner and I out in class and told everyone that our presentation was by far the best. Toward the end of class, a guy comes up to me, yes one of the arabs, and you could tell he was a bit nervous.

Him: " Hi, uhm, bas 7bait anqal minich your work because all my friends egouloon you do your work."

Me: "Yea yea sure here you go"

I love helping out people, it makes me feel very good inside, So I gave him my work without hesitation. He was not cute at all, he had a curly Afro (ily habeen feeha ils3oudyeen these days) which is something I sincerely hate, he was dark, ou he was at a average height for a guy his age. The next day he comes up to me and gives me my paper back, and very awkwardly asks if he could sit next to me, I didn't mind. He introduced himself, his name was "6rad" but his friends called him "6arad" like the jetski. Little by little all his friends came to the back and joined us. Their names were nassir, moh'd and they were twins, also, 3abdelra7man ou fya'9. Nassir ou Moh'd ou 3abdelra7man kuwaityeen ou fya'9 soudani ou 7ada maskhara, ou 6arad s3oudi mn Jeddah. I realized 6rad had an excellent sense of humor, which is always attractive. From that day on, his "group" and I would sit together and very often get in trouble because we talked alot. 6arad and I became really really close, we'd talk on msn all night and he couldn't stop flirting with me. I began to really love him, and so did he. He was super funny and we were connected. He trusted me alot and so did I. I knew he wanted our relationship to move to the next level, and I was only waiting for him to confess his love, and I knew I would be sooner than soon.

Amal:"Did you know ena 6arad lives in a mansion ou 3nda khadam ou kel shai mn il.s3oudiya?"
Me:"l2 ma kent adrii"
Amal:"Eee ou obou 9amam safarthum il.s3oudia hnii..."

I always wondered why he didn't bring up his family and what they did, but I didn't bother asking because I don't really care. On the other hand, I really apprectiated him not talking about himself because I just hate it when people do.

(mawaqf 9arat in class)

Nassir sat behind me, he got up to talk to his brother on the other side of the room. A very ugly girl came and sat in his seat to copy down what's on the board. Estakhferallah bas she was extremely ugly, she had an awkward long nose ou wayeha kella pimples. So nassir came back to his chair chan echoufha...
"BSMELLA! SHNO? MENO HATHI? MN WAIN 6L3T?!!"

Me: Kaaaaaaaaaaaaaak! 7araaam 3laiiik..

She was just looking at him ou smiling, she obviously couldn't understand what he was saying because she doesn't speak arabic.


.....
Presentations were going on, and after I was finished mine, I realized ena people were clapping except for 6rad...

Me: 6arad why are you not clapping?!!

6arad: Uuuh Sorry sorry.. (turns around at everyone ou says...)
KLAB KLAAAB KLAAAAB!

Me: LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!

(get it, klaab mu Claap?!! ou il.a'3biya ily in class Clap even more ou maydroun sheno il salfaa)

....
Let's Recap: I didn't talk about Nassir ou Moh'd.

Nassir ou Moh'd has to sisters in the school, and they were not attractive at all. I had english with on of his sister, Ta7reer, ou science with the other one, Abrar. Ta7reer was going out with a guy named khalid. Their relationship was on the DL (down low), for two reasons:
1) They just got back together.
2) khalid was too hot to be linked with someone as unattractive as her.

The two sisters realized how much attention I was getting in the school, and they wanted a vip entry to my attention bubble. However my honest and straight forward attitude was getting in there way. Changing their intentions from befriending me to breaking me.

In science class:

Abrar:" Omg, fee wa7ed esma khalid..."
Me: " Mu hatha?"
Abrar:" Wa7ed 7aqeer, I hate him so much..."
(And kept swearing and talking horribly about the guy)
Me:"Isn't he going out with your sister?"
Abrar:" WHAT?! My sister would never go out with a guy like him, he is garbage!"
Me:" Oh, i thought he is."

And for the rest of the class she was sitting on the tip of her seat counting down the seconds until the bell ran, and she went to tell her sister.

Next day, I was walking into school with my walking buddy, Amanda.
And there was ta7reer sitting on the bench impatient, and seemed like she stayed up all night.

ta7reer, taps me on the shoulder:" Can I talk to you?"
Me:"Sure!"
ta7reer:"Why are you talking about me?"
Me:" Me? you? why?"
ta7reer:"Abrar told me that you talked about me"
Me:"As everyone knows, I don't talk about people, I have no reason to."
Ta7reer:"You said I was going out with khalid, I would never do that, ruin my reputation and the name of my family, I'm already engaged and I don't need khalid."
Me:"Ok"
walking out I said...
Me:"but i saw you with him"
Ta7reer, shockingly replies:"WHAT? WHERE?"
Me:"parking lot"
ta7reer:"Which one?"
me:"behind the school"

And with that I left her to absourb the information she just recieved that condricted everything she was betraying, Purity, honesty, happiness, and honour.

Since that day:
-she changed her "meet up" place with him and made it further.
- Abrar wouldn't stop about me.
- It was very awkward in class with the boys.
- And that was the last day I talked to 6arad, but that wasn't the last time I saw him.

One of my friends goes up to 6arad asking about me:

Arwa:"6arad did you see"....."(me) "
6arad:"No! how would i know?"

Arwa comes tells me about his reply and that was a total shock to me because it was the last thing that I expected from him.
I was walking to class with Arwa and I walked by him, My eyes not leaving him, and his eyes looking at the floor with disappointment.

I didn't understand what I did so he ignores me and completely stops our relationship. He was the first man i ever loved, and i couldn't stop crying.
There was only one song that I couldn't stop listening to...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T34Zoy53jsM
I was really suffering and I wanted him more than ever.

....
I had to take night school, and to my surprise he was attending the same school too. Therefore I'd walk by him every night and he'd just stare and stare, and couldn't take his eyes off of me.

After a year or so, I added him on msn, yes, i added him on msn.
I was so curious, why did he do what he did? Why did he end our relationship like that? and that was the only question I wanted to be answered.

Me:" Hi"
6arad:" hi kaifik?"
me:" el.7mdellah bkhair, you?"
6arad:" good"
We talked and talked, but it was very awkward..
Me:" 6arad, can i ask you a question?"
6arad:" what? ask me"
Me:"Why did you do what you did?"
6arad:" what did I do?" (I could swear he knew exactly what I was talking about)
Me:" It's because of nassir ou moh'd right?"
6arad:"I don't remember"

And I left it at that..
He came on msn often, and for a while he had a lame joke.. that goes as followed..

6arad:" Who is this?[A]"
Me:"Who are you?[A]"

ou then we'd keep on talking..

After awhile, I blocked him because I didn't want him to talk to me anymore..
But last week I unblocked him and this is what happenes....

6arad:" meno entee?[A]"
Me:" you don't know who I am?"
6arad:" l2 meno m3ay? [A]"
Me:" Well how about I put you back on block and you can have the rest of your life to think about who I am"
BLOCK


Advice: Always try to turn the table on the guy, and try your best to make it seem like YOU( the girl) Who doesn't want to talk to HIM! That way you will have complete control, and it will be up to you to decide when you want to talk to him...


He will be attending college with me in Sept. and I can't wait to see his reaction. I do love him alot but there is no way in the world i'll go out with him. Oh I was about to forget, after maybe a year of not talking to 3bdelra7man, he was forced to since he was going out with my friend. I had the chance to ask why they stopped talking to me, and very not surprising I was correct all along...

3bdelra7man:" You know.. it was because of nassir ou moh'd ou what happened..."


I'm going to breifly tell you Taz's Story...
He was just this guy that I met in summer school, S3oudi too, he was tall, dark, and handsome,
he was my summer crush. After getting to know him, I realized he was asking for something that I wasn't willing to give, And I later found out this is what every guy was asking for. I ended it before it even started. What was really interesting about him is what 6arad said about him:" If you see his house in KSA you'd so want to be his girlfriend!" What happened to the world? Who dates a man for their house? Disgusting!






This was Just the beginning.

And with every guy...
I'd loose a chunk of my innocence...
And get exposed to a world of addiction..
A world where enough isn't enough...


Shall I continue?
I still have a whole list of guys to cover.. and with every guy, things get heated up and more interesting the Twilight!

P.S
I'm going Camping for three days.. If there are enough feedback and comments i'll try to post 3zouz's story before I leave, then Fai9al's When I come back...

I'm Really beginning to love you all;*

Seventeen & Counting:*~ Introducción

“I solemnly Promise that I will faithfully execute this story and I will say the truth and nothing but the truth. So help me God”

Significance of the blog name “Seventeen & Counting”:

Yes, I’ve known seventeen guys and more and I believe it is time to tell their stories.

This story has a beginning but does not end because this is a story of my life. This isn’t the

story of my school life neither is it a story about my relationship with my family, this is a story

STRICKTLY about my relationship with MEN. Let me clear up some things, this isn’t about my

clothes and what I wore neither is it about my hair and how it was styled, this is only about the

men that were in my life. Every single man taught me lesson that was very hard learn because I

had something inside of me that didn’t want to learn the lessons.

I truly and honestly believe that I am absolutely not guilty of anything that happened in my

past. This all started with something that was somewhere in me that was longing for

something that I had to dig deep for. I wanted something that was like drugs, as they say

"Once you Start you can’t Stop”. This thing was super hard to find, but that doesn’t matter

because you want it, and once you have it you want to throw it away. And that was the

biggest problem, letting go was something beyond my mental and physical power. It was

endless & uncontrollable… I truly hope i won't get judged for my past, I was confused and

did not know what I was getting myself into.

God created Adam and Eve, and every girl wants to find her “Adam”. It’s not just Adam that

they are looking for; it’s how it happens, his eyes, his clothes, his cologne, how he approaches,

and his special usage of words, and so on… But the story i'm about to tell you is REALITY, this

isn't fantasy land anymore, this is the real world...

Ladies, Let's welcome the men:

*6rad

- - > Taz
*3zouz

- - > Fai9al (a.k.a Santa)
*7amoud

*Man9our

*3zeez

*Faisal

*3thbi

*Boodi

*Nawaf

*Jose

*Barouk

*A7mdou

*Mishou

*Khaild
- - > 7moudiie

*Nassir

*7amani

These are there names in order; these names are straight out of my life, expect nothing but my reality.
P.S
Most of the names are REAL; I only changed maybe one or two names.
(“ - - >” means that the person is somehow connected to them and you’ll find out how)

Shall I continue Ladies?

Let me hear it...